Salam Maal Hijrah 1439H, it’s a new day new year in Islam’s calendar. I pray for the best and hoping the future will be more blessed by Allah and stay believe that “Setiap percaturan Allah itu hebat”. 😊
I really feel clumsy lately sebenarnya tak tahu kenapa furthermore my arms buat perangai lagi macam engine kereta buruk kejap ok kejap ko, I’m getting sick again, it’s really troublesome sebenarnya even worse than before... arrggghhh bosan betul, I couldn’t stand the pain anymore it seems like is time for me to get the arm support for real this time. Selalu cakap nak pakai tapi aku ngelak, aku tak rasa ada yang suka pakai arm support tu dah macam orang patah tangan jer but what choice do I have now😔 I’m sick being sick lately... no one to talk nobody around to help me. Hrmmm.. I lost my momentum in everything...I was entirely sickkkkkkkkkk...!!!!!
My mind macam keep on repeating apa doctor cakap during my last check up, as reported kata doctor, it was a rare case for a lady at my age effected by Osteoid Osteoma, this disease commonly attacked boy teenagers mostly and only few cases on small little girls where they suffered in pain from several part of the long bones. Suffering with same symptoms in pain just like what I had, hrmmm sounds silly at first when I got to know about this but kuasa Tuhan kan benda nak jadi mana kira umur, nothing is impossible.. I have gone through few diagnostic, examinations and imagings, entah berapa kali pun dah tak ingat. As suggested there’s invasive techniques can be employed to treat osteoid osteoma by CT-guided, sound simple, safest and most effective procedure in case but it’s doesn’t looks like it! Clearly it doesn’t looks like a CT scan which I need to laying down on the tray diam² and get into a giant donuts machine, eventually CT-guided is all about drilling! Drilling the bones to remove the small tiny tumors, yet to count the procedures to identify the spot before the drilling process! honestly isn’t that easy things for me. 😟😣 somehow not much cases has being reported locally..😔 Huhhhhhh giler punya kerja, drilling bones bukannya drilling batu block! Memanglah during the surgery aku tak sedar but still... kena siang macam ikan dalam OT nanti.
😕I need a strength for all this sebenarnya, I’m not as strong as what people being thinking ..at least someone who can encourage and support me. I have no idea what will happened after the surgery, it may succeed it may not. Senang cakap aku sendiri tak confident dengan procedures yang doctor cadangkan tu sebab local hospital takde lagi successful case study, meaning I’ll be the item for new experiments. Those case yang pernah buat CT-guided semua bukan kat Malaysia... so I got my point here, typical local doctor!! Not much expectation, I know its really high risk. 😟 but sampai bila nak macam ni. I’m emotionally disturbed sebenarnya in and out😣 ..ntahlah... takde mood so taknak tulis apa² lagi for today...xoxo
