I was crying again at last after the tears refused to fall, clear up my mind to not thinking too much of what has happened lately. My heart was crying for many days and I felt totally miserable.
What is done has done, things has happened there's nothing more I can do with it, my heart never once lose a single hope since the day first. Being alone and keep on convincing myself, time has comes and this is what Allah has decided for me. Only Allah knows all the secrets and he has given me the way of getting out from something that might not giving any benefit to my life. Redha, that's the only words I could say. There must be something better are waiting for me out there, so much hope in my heart.
I wake up early morning and cleaning up the kittens, having a quick breakfast before I left to meet my mom. I was talking to myself and thinking deeply along the way home..if this is the best plan by Allah, I'll openly accept the destiny. Narrow down my mind to believe this will be the best for me, I was nagging and crying again along the way heading back home.
Ya' Allah, you know I'm hurts so much and please give the strength to forgive and forget. You has removes something you gave earlier is to empty my hands for an even greater gift. I surrender myself to you, you're the one who created me, the one who knows my pains and my hidden tears, the one who sees everything hidden and untold...
I'm leaving everything fully heartedly today, following what has been planned for a better life.
