A million memories flashed through my mind I just smiled and said to myself to stayed strong because this is a part of the games in life and I used too it.. too much of effort involved to sustained everything but when Allah have said something that not meant to be He will take away from you, no matter how hard I tried. Well, memories absolutely are not always the best measure of things..and it's really hurts.
Too much of things has done, the only next possible step to do is to stop and walk away. I'm not giving up neither try for one more time. I have to draw the line of determination from everything, what truly mine will eventually mine. No matter how hard I try will never be.
I guess the isn't really a reason to run away, but I need to get up and go seeking for the right direction. Lose my way and forget where I came from. I'm been through a lot ...life is too tough along my destiny and yes too much of pains. Alhamdullilah.. Allah is still there listening when my heart is crying. He gave me the hardest battles to fight and go back to seek for His help to survive. A trial that brings me back close to Him, a reminder that He sent to show His loves so I won't turn far away from Him. Allahuakbar...
I'm so weak....being alone and I really need the strength to stand eventually. Only Allah knows how much I pretend to be strong when no one sees my hidden tears. When I need a shoulder to cry on, Allah always there for me especially when people easily punished me for mistakes I have done. No matter how many trials and difficulty You test me with, allow me to let these difficulty serve to make me a stronger Muslim and sincere to You. I know that it is only You who is the source of peace when I was unable to attain true peace of mind. I realized only you knows that's enough for me and when will be the best time for me to have it... help me stay focused on my purpose...
