New day after a long holidays, waking up get ready to make my day busy with new exposure. Switch on my laptop to complete some of requirements. Whatsapp group starts making noise as early at 7.30am! It seems like today will be filled by unplanned schedules. My arms is nagging again due to a cold weather, I can feel like the bone is shrinking and twisting my muscle. Trying not to rely too much on medication, taking a deep breath and relaxed while putting a cream to relieve the pain before covering up with the arms guard. I decided to reduced from taking too much pills on my daily routine, one pill at night to help me for a relaxing sleep. I reserved all those painkillers only when I really need it badly.
Arms... after few tests and examinations, doctor has confirmed I was suffered with osteoid osteoma. A dull pain that escalated to severe at night and slight pain rising to be become severe even at night time or early morning especially when I was in the deep sleep! Yes! It's seriously disturbing. There's no specific treatment yet for bone tumor. Due to a very tiny size of the tumor surgery might not be the best solutions, high risks of other implications. It's clear enough I probably have to bear with this pain for another 1-2years more, hoping the pain will relieved over the counter pain medication from beginning. I don't know when exactly the pain will be gone..wiith all the limitations eventually make me feel a lil bit handicapped!!
I wish I could have someone next to me all the time and never give up when I'm emotionally unstable. A soulmate, family or probably a kids to be there when I need the most. To keep on telling me everyday to stay stronger to fight...to encourage for making me feel alive ....to make me laugh when I forgot to smile..to wake me up with a whispered on my ears to reminds me I'm still beautiful when I get older ...
Hrmmm....the phone is getting quite, nothing is popping up except for news notifications on the screen..I'm too bored..
