Wearing a hijab wasn't that bad actually but to get into the right way of putting a hijab sometimes a bit challenging for a new comer like me. Something is not right if I have to spent more time to get myself ready everyday. I'm still figuring what will be the best way without increasing the time spent in front of the mirror. Hope I could remain what I have decided and I don't want any interference that probably may cause me of halfway doing things. Sabarr....
I have received the tentative date for my umrah trip today, submitting the passports as requested and putting a special request to the Minister's office for early release and smooth arrangement on the visa and the rest, hopefully everything goes well. Inshallah. Instead of doing nothing because I'm overwhelmed today I will do something even if it's small because it will be one step closer everyday.
Keeping the positive mind..I may not there yet, being fall many times in life before I truly find the right place forever to live my life happily ever after. I can remember every inches of all the frustrations of not being able to talk. I knew what I wanted to say, but I could not get the words out of my mouth. Never forget to reminding myself everyday and then, heading up and don't bother turning back if only you have to struggling to make things work. It may not giving me any benefits except repeating the frustrations. I have to be myself and loves myself more than others, appreciate what I have gone through. The hardest time being alone in this city, redha because Allah is always being fair to whoever who puts all trust in Him, I'll let my heart to heals by getting closer to Allah to become more stronger than yesterday. Inshallah...
Too much of times has wasted and yet to count each of tears involved, words make no sense, I was insanely blind. I've found bliss in ignorance. I don't like things in my mind, stacking up that are so unnecessary. Dragging around what's bringing me down, not going to think about it so much and I'd be set free once and for all. Allah never allows pain without purpose and I'll not giving up of standing if I am about to fall. Believing when everything seems like it's fallinh apart that's when Allah is putting things together just the way He wants it. Accepting Qda & Qadar fully heartedly, whatever happens it happen for the best. I just hoping and waiting, nothing Allah has written for us will goes to someone else. Have faith, beautiful things will come at the right place and time.
