I was stayed late last night and due to that I'm still on my bed at 11am. I need to take Ottet for castration today, enough for him of being a 'abg long' in the house. I need a rest for the time being from babysitting all the 🐱🐱🐱. Enough with back to back productive pregnancies from Ollie, Cikka and Eebee, they really need to stop. I need my own space and time to get back traveling. Yeah I miss that a lot, need to plan for my single trip again soon probably going back to 🇳🇴 and 🇷🇺 or maybe take this opportunity to visit Senam in 🇩🇪. I still remember the promise I made to her that I'll come to visit her since she's got married but she's already have a one kids now. Anyhow I still have a couple of months after my Umrah trip, hopefully this time nothing will stop me. 🤦🏻♀️
Opening my notepad, checking on a long list of notes. My eyes spotted on my TODO list, there's still a list pending to be completed. Traveling, investment, future and married...yeah married 👰🏻hrmmmmI think I need exclude or maybe remove that subject from my list now on. Trial period has done and damage not gonna change anything so no point keep thinking on something that seems no ending. Is best for me to think about myself and what I need to do next for my future and the rest that worth wise. 🤷🏻♀️🙇🏻♀️
I'd read this one quote on twitter recently, they said 'Hidup untuk manusia lain adalah mati, mati sebelum tiba masa' that's right!!!☝🏼 hrmmm I should agree with that. We shouldn't jeopardize our future just because things are not going as what we wanted. Things are in place, in order to be success I need to have a strong heart to keep on moving, leave aside things that bring me down in life. Be patience and stay tough to fight👊🏼, I'll never give up or lose faith because I still believe there is a time for everything.🙃
🙅🏻Stop doings whatever I used to, forgiving myself for all my wrongdoings by going back to Allah. I've been a little hard lately to myself to keep on growing, everything of value takes time to build. I have to stop being available to unavailable, stop giving so much to people who cannot even identify who they are. Stop giving anything to anyone who can't reciprocate, things of value require sacrifice. If people are too hurt, too busy or just too damn stupid to see you're the blessing they've being asking for ... just fall back. I know my worth. I stop feeling something is wrong with me as I don't deserve a guilt trip along my journey, I've already face the demons 👿😈and it's time for me to get back on the right path. Perhaps I could stay stronger to overcome the moment. 😟
There's many more good things has been planned, health and carrier of course. I'm not gonna stop all the struggles, losing something doesn't mean I should quit from everything. I'll never regret of anything that has happened, the facts it cannot be changed, undone for forgotten..🤷🏻♀️. so I take it as a lesson learned to move on.🚶🏻♀️🚶🏻♀️
As for tomorrow, I need to get back to my desk continue what need to be done. Rezeki Allah is everywhere, I can see that clearly but nothing will come easily on table and I need to work hard for it. I know Allah is everywhere and everything from Allah always a good thing. I feel grateful that Allah blessed with things I did not even ask for. Alhamdullilah ..🙏🏼 😊
