Getting ready to depart to the airport, I was 'tido² ayam' since last night. Well, I don't want to miss things for the second time. Hrmmm no no not once but many times! The moment I reached the airport almost 8am, my mind start squeezing I can't stop thinking about you. The moment that you were here most of time when I'm traveling but today you wasn't there like before. I misses you the most I guess, but nothing much I can do to bring you back to believe everything. Fighting with your own feeling ain't easy as said.
Dear Allah, please help me..I don't want him to popping up in my mind again. Allow me Allah to keep on moving without any interference anymore at least. I need a better life and someone who know to appreciate me. Even though not from someone that who I may call a lover but at least from someone that I called a true friend. Not just come and take things for granted for my kindness. It was my big mistake, I used to be nice but realising that I can't be too nice anymore. Enough of bullshitting, let myself move forward ahead without anyone around me. I should be fine.
Believe in fade, things happen for a reason. One door close means there will be another are still open for me. I just need a companion but not looking for a further husband or life long soulmate! At this point I should be able to decide between what I need and what I want. Perhaps if I'm lucky I will find that someone who can saves me and change everything.
Okay than, 13.5hours to go. It's time to freeze myself in the long flight. Bon voyage!
