Red alert! This is life....we always fall for the person that will never fall for us, always want something we can't have and always say things we shouldn't. There's a things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things that we don't want to know but we have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.
Sometimes we just have to let go of someone who matters to us... not because we have to but because it's right thing to do. But let us remember that we can't force anyone to love us. We can't beg someone to stay when they want to leave and be someone else. This is what love all about. However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of understanding that everything leaves for a reason, but leave with a lesson.
I'm all alone again, knowing that being happy is a fundamental to fulfilling life. Having everything in life won't bring me anywhere. I may smiles and be good with people surrounding but they won't be there for me whenever I need them the most.
Friends, they will be with me when I was there to smiles..Family, nothing much I could proud except feel thankful for my existence. Nothing more.. only Allah knows where I was standing between friends and family. Love one, I don't have any. Age factor or maybe I had enough of insincere people around where I don't have the trust anymore.
Life are so routine everyday. Meeting, managing and convincing people, pretty much but in many ways. Time constrains, I'm learning to appreciate myself more than others. I eventually stop myself from accepting people get into my heart, but they may just deserve the companion. That's the only thing I can promised. I devoted myself with works more than I'm supposed todo. Work hard to reward myself with whatever I desire. As when I was up, it's never as good as it seems, and when I were down I was fighting to get back again but life must go on.
I'm done with feeling alone, it's because I realize that I'm not really alone and everybody has experiences the same time to time. Knowing hows the rock bottom feels like, and how shitty it's feels to disappoint someone we care about. With the broken heart fallen short of something and trying accomplish with insecurities alive just because it look like having it all together, but doesn't mean I actually do. I'm really out of freaking mind!
Urghhh... I was fall asleep on my couch while updating my blog, the whole entire house was bright with all lights on! I'm awake just after I heard the early morning 'Azan' from the mosque nearby. I just want to go to my room get into my blanket, free my mind and vape on before rolling myself on my bed.
Kuurr...zzZZzZzzzz
