Chinese New Year just around the corner, today the management has decided to award all the staff with one day additional unrecorded leave for Chinese New Year. So means next week will be a long long holiday again. Great thing for all chinese to celebrate the festive with family and loves one.
As for me I need something to refresh myself, I'm not going to stay at home during the long day off again. Thinking of utilizing last year leave balance, I need to go somewhere where no one knows me and stay away from my daily routine. But how? as he the only one who always be with me for my vaccay. Hrmm I was stucked up truly stucked! he seems to minimize the conversation between us, we are truly like a stranger lately. This might cause of the recent unexpected incident created by some stupid bastard who came a crossed to messed things between us. If only I could tell, only if you will believe just like along the way how we get to know each other until that day. Each day I was thinking about you but I was not in any position to force you to listen to my story like we use to be, I won't do that so. I want you back if only there's a trust in you. Only hope I have, may one day you will realise everything. Everything that we had while we together as "friend". Everything that tells how much care and loves I have for you since the day one we meet. Everything that only Allah knows how to explain my true feeling. Everything that I put together to make you happy. But only if Allah allow things to happen again.
I may be lonely without you today but I was blessed all happened just in time when I really need it. Thanks Allah for keep me safe from someone unresponsible. I may loose him from my life but please help me to keep him safe and healthy, shower him with bunch of happiness and smiles. Slowly accepting the fade that I have to let you go and yet to be back home. Allah may have his own reasons why this happened to us. To Allah, please tell him that I do misses him so much.
I need some space to breath and strengthenall around me, the excitement won't be the same as when you were around. Hoping I could stay stronger to believe all this. To whoever may the cause of all this frustration and sadness, may you be blessed as well and sincerely I feel sorry for your existance in this beautiful world, feel sorry for your fade and deeply sorry for not be able to win my heart and for a million sorry for your life! Nothing will change someone who has low mentality and uneducated person to someone brave and well wise minded.
Good night .. love
