My heart was nagging silently hoping for something that I misses the most since a month ago. Seems to much of changes to be expected next, again here back to the square circulation. I'm all alone and helpless at home. Overwhelm by the loneliness was the hardest part to be stronger when I really need someone to be next to me like I used to be.
The first month of the year has reached to the end, time was running too fast without holding me a single moment. Be at home is the most ever best things that I needed. Well indirectly I have to admit that I do not have much friends surrounded so will be the cause to be home.
Boring weekend is back! Just not like others does, sometimes the moods won't bring me anywhere. Making myself busy do the cleaning at home was my routine I couldn't runaway and with my little kiddos instead. Without anyone interruption, I drawn my own rules of doing things where some of the it been delayed quite sometimes. There's few things at home need to be done long time ago, looking at the wall that full with frames. Damn! I knew I need to finish it off with photos this time. This will be my final touch of completing the decorations. Nothing much to proud of instead of having own place I desired even though not as much I was thinking.
Dragging myself of doing things, I have to send most of the frames that I hanged on the wall for the photos printing. This ain't an easy work, I have to bring all down again and send them off to the shop which I finally did. Is time to wait for at least a week for them to make it done and well frame of all my selection photos.
Its just another messed of me, I have to design my shoes storage seems I have a bunch of pairs of shoes to keep. I need them so badly to place all my shoes that I have before it get fully loaded very soon. Not too much I guess for a lady like me with a multiple needs to make things look neat. First task done, next to drive a long the way to buy foods the kiddos and groceries..#Duh Way to go over the weekend, I all alone. To carry all the stuff back home was a terrified things! Since last few months, I was unable to carry heavy stuff due to me recovery period after my surgery. How I wish someone could lay me a hands to helps but hrmmm...No one comes into the house to push me around except myself.
I have so much anger bottled up inside I feel bad for what I have gone through. Deeply nagging for something unsure! I'm terrifically bored of doing things alone, but I have no choice to face them all day by day.
blas...blaaa.blaaaaa let's sleep!
blas...blaaa.blaaaaa let's sleep!
